Cancer Follow-Up

So my August 1st post left out the after-drama of the secondary pathologists findings. I just want it documented so I don't forget why I was so angry after everything seemed all peachy keen. So, my first pathology report said my 1.6 cm nodule wasn't cancer. Unfortunatly the specialist up North somewhere disagreed. SO, the second report said I had 2 cancer spots, both papillary carcinoma. One 1.6 cm the other 1.4 mm. This meant I definitely 'qualified' for radioactive iodine treatment (RAI) - which absolutely sent me spinning with anger at the irony of things. Why didn't they just find that in the first place? Then I'd be happy to have the RAI and would have been expecting it. Now, I feel like someone told me I wasn't going to have Christmas, then said I was, and then changed their mind again. YOU CAN'T DO THAT IN THAT ORDER and expect it to be taken well. Long story short, I thought about it... alot, and felt/feel that the RAI would do more harm than good right now. I'm not going to go through all the technical reasons of why that is on this blog, but suffice it to say (along with the fact that a 2 year old doesn't understand she can't touch mommy for 5 days b/c her mommy is radioactive and there's no where for me to do the stupid treatment but at home), I am not doing the RAI. So we are watching my TSH levels and calcium, etc. very closely. And someday, I'll understand all this and why it unfolded this way.